Lately, I’ve been finding it pretty difficult to close my eyes and go to sleep. :/ I would get into bed late, sometimes at past 2 in the morning (like last nigh-slash-earlier today) and I would lie awake for hours, just refusing to fall asleep. :/

My mind would always be full of [sometimes] irrelevant thoughts and I would try to not think about anything at all but still, I would lie awake even with my mind blank. It’s quite annoying.

At some point, I think I did fall asleep. But I was vaguely aware of the small noises in my room. The whirring sound from the electric fan, the barking dogs outside in the distance, the shuffling of the little dog in my room sometimes moving from the floor onto my bed.

By 5 in the morning, I was fully awake again. Quinn was knocking on the door, willing someone to get up and open the door for her so she could go out and do her business. The previous night I tried to ignore her and she ended up making my room her toilet. :/ So I got up, opened the door and left it slightly ajar for when she decides to go back in. She hated being left outside alone. She’s a spoiled little thing but she’s just so cute that way. LOL. Anyway, when I got back to bed, I was battling myself again. “Go to sleep, Ana!” But for some reason or another, I lie awake. I didn’t know how to make myself comfortable enough for sleeping.

I ended up standing up and going on a trip to the comfort room. And when I came back to bed, I suddenly decided to grab a glass of water. I knew in myself that I was merely stalling. I even argued with Quinn ‘cause she was on my place in bed. I’m guessing it was an hour or two before I actually did fall asleep. And still, the littlest thing brought me back to reality.

How can I get rid of this insomnia-ish condition of mine? :|